Well I've been getting a lot of grief for not blogging lately so I thought I would take a stab at it tonight. I unfortunately don't have new pictures to share because I've been too busy, tired or lazy to take them.
To be completely honest I haven't been blogging much because I haven't had much nice to say. I think that I'm possibly a couple steps away from the padded room and the men with white coats.
I have had issues with depression in the past but nothing quite like this. I have changed pills, added pills, ranted and raved, slept, prayed and gone to church and cried. Seriously nothing gets rid of this icky feeling and the roller coaster of emotions that seem to jump from tears to rage in about 3 seconds flat. A friend of mine keeps encouraging me to see a professional to get my head sh rinked and the thought of adding one more appointment or medical bill to my life makes me ill.
My doctor ordered blood work to look at all of my hormones. It will be interesting to see if this is something caused by wacky hormone levels. I know that it is possible to have wacky hormones but seriously I'm only 32. Don't you need to be old or going through menopause to have hormone issues.
I knew I was bad when Justin nicely tells me that he has recorded Oprah for me. She had a whole show on hormone replacement therapy.
By blogging buddy Elasta Mom shared the quote below a while back.
We can either watch life from the sidelines, or actively participate...Either we let self-doubt and feelings of inadequacy prevent us from realizing our potential, or embrace the fact that when we turn our attention away from ourselves, our potential is limitless.
I feel a bit like I have taken a time out from the game. I know the plays and want to be on the court with my team but feel like I'm just going through the motions.
I came across this picture of Rex feeding Riley. I love how he looks so proud of himself, and Rex looks so little to me too. Rex is such a good big brother and loves Riley so much.